The Bottomless Box

Paul marvels in Romans 11 at both the riches of wisdom and knowledge of our God, stating, "How unsearchable are His judgments and unfathomable His ways." Over the years that I have been a believer, and even in more recent days, I put more and more of my unanswered questions into that box, the box of His unsearchable ways. It is simply an admission that I cannot figure things out. There are things that occur in our lives that defy explanation, and no matter how long or how hard we try, there are answers that elude us. We are "out of our depth" when it comes to answering questions such as "Why did this happen?" or "Why didn't this happen in a different way?" When it comes to trials, I know certain things are revealed to us from the Word of God about why they occur...to produce endurance...to refine our faith...to discipline us...and more. But more often than not, our circumstances defy explanation, and God's ways remain unfathomable. But isn't this when the component of faith becomes operative? Look at Hebrews 11 and check to see if those listed in the Hall of Faith stepped out in trust even when they did not understand. Many of the things that happen in our lives are not tagged with an explanation as to why they are happening. Maybe God one day will take that box and say, "Let me show you My purpose in this event or this trial in your life in 2009, but if not, and meanwhile, we continue to walk by faith.

Medical update: Bilirubin levels are still way too high, and we did not get to finish radiation today due to ice. Thursday should be the last treatment, followed by a scope to look down my esophagus and investigate the cause of the severe pain. Strep tests were negative.